Step away from the Cake

Having emptied my Calorie Allotment for today at exactly 10:38 this morn, I proceeded to borrow from tomorrow.  In another “Out of Control ” Moment, I continued to remove from the holy calorie bank until the middle of next week.

I am almost at the 20 lb. point and needed another 3 to give myself a great bday present.  A scale revealing the next digit down.  A little setback, yes, but I will forge on down the less is better trail.

Since this Blog has become Very Personal…Due to the fact that I can Count My Readers on One Hand…  I am keeping track on this forum…of the Crunches I do every day.   This is Day 1.  Actually its always Day 1…if the Past serves the Future.  NO!  This IS going to Happen.  Someone Join me….  Okay will be back in a minute…have to do my crunches for Today.

50 Crunches *1 Set – Day 2  (Sept 21-09)

25 Crunches *1 Set - Day 1 ( Sept 20- 09)

Just because…I ate a substantial amount of a whole pizza.    Just because…I finished the bag of sour cream potato chips.  Just because…I did this all before noon.    I can still take a relatively unproductive diet day and turn it into a stellar attempt.  I think the hours left before midnight…show promise.  My attitude has taken a 360 or at least a 90 degree turn.

On a lighter note (Good Pun) .  I am getting alot of work done here.

Anybody out there need a diet buddy…???     Safety in numbers?  Success in Shared Allegiance?

I am also wondering…    Consolation…I did not lose the $100.00 I earned from ten days of Stellar Behavior.

When I knew I had choices and used them

I used a new deterrent today in the fight against high calorie count.  It is something I had forgotten I had…since perhaps being a small child.  I remember those early days knowing exactly what I wanted and exactly how to get it.   It dawned on me today…that I had “Choices”.  As I climbed into the refrigerator to gather a few items…I climbed back out…and thought over the repurcussions of the choice I was about to make.  “Doesn’t have to be that way” I heard my inner self say…and I rechose!  ( a valid word?)  Yes, I have choices…and I think I’ll be making the right ones for awhile.

The Last Two Days were not the healthiest.   These Amazing Bad Carbohydrates…and Saturated Fatty Foods found their way into my menu plan.   I didn’t put up too much of a fight.  But I did not fall into the “well I wrecked my diet now” mindset and keep on down that self-destructive path.  I ate in moderation (for me) and I am once again excited to eat better tomorrow, etc.  I did not collect my last two days of $10.00 IOU’s to me.   But I have accumulated $100.00 so far.

I love this protein drink!  Filling…Flavorful…Low in Sugar and Calories.  Lots of flavors to choose.

…Of going clothes shopping with the kids… and having to sit on a chair waiting until they are done because nothing is going to fit me.

I have had enough…of wearing the same outfit all the time because my choices are limited.

Of making excuses why I can’t get to the gym.

Of waiting till tomorrow when I will try to remedy this situation.

Of constantly thinking about my next meal…when I had just finished the last one.

Of assuring myself that the person staring back at me in the mirror is not me.

Perhaps Oprah making a public statement regarding her weight struggle has influenced my decision to come out of the refrigerator.

I have decided to publicly shock myself into a “no turning back decision”.

Okay, here it is…I can’t believe I am typing this. I am going to record how I am coping daily and make every day… a day closer to my goal of 50 lbs. 

I am also paying myself $10.00 a day to stay on course.  It will be in the form of IOU’s but I can promise that I will collect!!  Tomorrow morning I will owe myself $90.00 if I behave today.  Hey, Money Talks!!

Daily Essential

Yes, I am still adhering to the rules.  No white flour and very low sugar.  Removed the whip from my Starbucks drinks and upped my protein.  I love the “Muscle Milk” protein drinks.   Also, I have been putting olive oil on my whole grain bread.  Not a fast weight loss yet…as I have not been tracking calorie consumption.  I am just trying to get control again.  My cravings disappeared the first day.  I have $70.00 in my IOU bank.   Today I am going to add some weight training to the equation.  Stay tuned.